October 15th, 2004

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Have you ever tried to go to sleep...and as soon as you close your eyes you are bombarded with voices? Like...loud voices as if they were there. With me it used to happen all the time when I was a child, and it scared me. I remember I would see my mothers face sometimes and she'd start talking jibberish really really fast and it was like a brain overload because she wouldnt' stop and I didn't know what she was saying and there was no facial expression. It always disturbed me a lot. Then sometiems there would just be tons of voices. It happened again a few nights ago. I would close my eyes and there was one voice in particular. I sware to God at first I opened my eyes startled that someone was in my room. Then everytime I closed them it would return and just babble. I thought it was like...me or something but I couldn't change it so then I didn't know what it was. There was also background noise of other voices as well. Whenever I opened my eyes, they were gone, but as soon as I closed them, back. Very frustrating. I don't remember what I did to diminish them and finally fall asleep...I think I started thinking about something really intensly until I just fell asleep.

Sorry that was so rambly and repetitive...it's just a very weird thing that I just recently started thinking about. I really need to get to sleep!!!!! Hopefully they aren't there tonight ;-)